December 2011
It’s not like I can say oh it’s the last year I’ll get into all my dream colleges and be gone cause that’s not gonna happen. It’s not like I can party and get fucked up to forget about it all, cause that’s not an option anymore. It’s not like I have some amazing boyfriend to run to cause he’s nonexsistent.it’s not like I can come home to a...
One of the worst hours ever like literally fuck me. Fuck me hard. Love being surrounded by all that and realizing for the first time that controlling myself around it is like impossible. Like there’s no point everyone is there for one reason and one reason only. To get trashed. It’s understandable it just sucks. And knowing there’s a remedy that would take this feeling away...
Days like today are good. Exchanging gifts with aly Taylor and aubs is like one of my favorite things about Christmas even tho we’ve only done it twice..it’s like we all have such a strong connection when were together andddddd the presents are the best haha because we know each other I guess something like that so happy for our infinity friendship rings that shit on the tiffanys one....
My god I wish I didn’t have to try so hard to not think about this but yet I find myself thinking about it 24/7 just not in a way that would cause me to lose it. I’m like kinda really discontent but I’m like tricking myself into thinking I’m find and happy and in the middle of doing all that I’m now super confused as to what I really feel. I have so much to say I wish...
I’m honestly so superised with how much fun I had last night and I didn’t really have To fake it at all. Danced with like everyone. I’m so thankful for that so so thankful.
If I end up being right about this stuff I keep trying to tell myself I’m over reacting about I’m gonna be livid. Slutslutslutslutslutslut.
I think it's cute when you hear a guy talk about...
I’m so frustrated. And I know something is gonna happen and I’m gonna explode and not be able to handle this anymore. I don’t deserve this I really don’t. I know I’m over reacting but whatever.
Noah Wrote Allie 365 letters, so I don't think...
Oh my gooooodnessss I am so frustrated.
